In my last post I wrote about my problem with writing convincing characters. I said:
I must practice writing characterizations, focus on each character and discover their individual voice. Learn to describe them in ways that captures their mood and emotions in an honest fashion. I must discover the words they would use, the sentences they would say, and the actions they would take.
I have considered using blogging as a solution to this problem. … I could use some of my time blogging to write small scenes and out of context conversations. Vignettes from my world that I may or may not keep.
I received some support for this idea, enough to make me seriously consider it. The problem is that I am uncertain how to begin. This style of writing is foreign to me. My thoughts first leap to my plot, followed by the settings, followed by other concerns that I have typically let take precedence over the characters. The idea of putting some collection of characters together and letting them interact without a broader context is bizarre to me.
Add yet, that is the whole point of the exercise, isn’t it? To break my current paradigm for writing so as to improve my overall skill. To discard old assumptions and start looking at things from a fresh perspective.
This is easier said than done.
As I sit here, flipping through my characters in my head, I find myself paralyzed by indecision. Who do I pick to start with? Do I start with a single character alone? Or should I have two or more in a conversation or perhaps some kind of conflict? Would it be better to focus on major characters first, or to practice with secondary characters instead? Should I try to write a scene already in my head, one I know I will want later? Or should I focus on fixing a scene that I have already written, but which has problems? Or would it be better to focus on something I have no intention of keeping, but which might flesh out the character’s background and behavior? Should I incorporate descriptions of their current setting, or should I leave out such details for now?
I am tempted to write names and ideas on little scraps of paper and throw them together into my hat. That way I could draw one at random and just force myself to write on whatever I pull out. Hardly a great idea, but it would break my current logjam.
Another aspect of my dilemma is that I am a slow writer, prone to editing my work as I am creating it. I tend to analyze each sentence, each word, in an effort to form the right phrase. But what I need to do is capture characters in a visceral way. Analyzing sentences while engaged in that effort seems akin to losing sight of the forest because you spend too much time studying the trees.
And so I dither and instead write a post about the difficulties of making the effort, rather than making the effort itself.
Hopefully by next time I will have a better grasp on how to begin. If not, I may delay the vignettes a bit longer so I can vacillate some more. Certainly I have a host of other topics I can write about. I believe, however, that it is my weakness with characterizations that needs addressing most urgently. It is this problem that keeps my existing chapters from feeling finished. That forces me to edit them again and again.